I am interested in language as well and feel that writing
somehow is the most important thing I can do, even when I don't really know what
it is for. Writing music is quite good, but not the same as words. I have had
experiences where I have written something down that I couldn't possibly have
thought of without the act of writing, and often wonder where it all comes from.
I am inclined to think that something supra-personal could be happening, in much
the same way as a thing I read in a book about meditation the other day - that
it is a mistake to think you are meditating because in the deep state you are
being meditated.
I have to say, though, I have conflicting views about
language, because I know as well that it is a powerful thing to stop language -
in this sense I think silence is truly valuable. I don't think that is the same
as saying that nothing can be said about the experience, because there are large
numbers of books written about meditation and eastern thought and authors
obviously go to great lengths to describe the experience. The point is though,
that this is only a guide and not a substitute for the real experience. At the
end of the day, you've got to do the practice.
I think, through my meditation rather than writing experience,
that stopping the language opens up a more direct apprehension of things, and
more importantly, opens up the mind /body so that different powers can operate.
It is the will to power, in my view. Although I am willing to believe that is
just one facet of my experience. I like exploring language, or the way the
imagination operates through language, and think too that it operates at
different levels.