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I am interested in language as well and feel that writing somehow is the most important thing I can do, even when I don't really know what it is for. Writing music is quite good, but not the same as words. I have had experiences where I have written something down that I couldn't possibly have thought of without the act of writing, and often wonder where it all comes from. I am inclined to think that something supra-personal could be happening, in much the same way as a thing I read in a book about meditation the other day - that it is a mistake to think you are meditating because in the deep state you are being meditated. 

I have to say, though, I have conflicting views about language, because I know as well that it is a powerful thing to stop language - in this sense I think silence is truly valuable. I don't think that is the same as saying that nothing can be said about the experience, because there are large numbers of books written about meditation and eastern thought and authors obviously go to great lengths to describe the experience. The point is though, that this is only a guide and not a substitute for the real experience. At the end of the day, you've got to do the practice. 

I think, through my meditation rather than writing experience, that stopping the language opens up a more direct apprehension of things, and more importantly, opens up the mind /body so that different powers can operate. It is the will to power, in my view. Although I am willing to believe that is just one facet of my experience. I like exploring language, or the way the imagination operates through language, and think too that it operates at different levels. 

~ Esmarelda