...The language and intent puzzle continues. It's extraordinary how you
have to conceptualize everything you think in order to deal with it. To me
language is a mystery because I always think of it as a very recent invention
in evolutionary terms, something superficial and artificial, and up to now
other psychedelic substances have supported that view. Real life takes place
without language.
It always puzzles me how they can say that one half of the brain is
primarily devoted to language (admittedly to other things too, but they always
pick out language as if that were its prime function). Because if so what was
that half of the brain doing through all the millions of years when we didn't
have language, and what is it doing in animals that still don't have language?
But sometimes you get the feeling that language is very fundamental indeed,
and on Salvia you sometimes get the crazy notion that words precede the
things they describe! But it isn't words as such - that would be absurd -
rather the words are a cloak for "concepts". It's the concepts that
have this spooky fundamental quality, though even that is a bizarre enough
idea.
This is where "intent" comes in. The heads on my first trip
pointed out that it's not words themselves they understand but the intent
which the words cloak. It's quite clear to me now that they were borrowing the
concept of "intent" from its meaning in Castaneda and not from what
it means in the dictionary (after all, they don't speak English!)
The concept of "intent" in Castaneda is radically different from
the everyday use of the word. Castaneda's "intent" is a power which
actually brings about the intended result. Whereas we all know that simply
intending something in the ordinary way doesn't bring it about.
I suspect that the reason I have to formulate thoughts that I'm already
thinking perfectly well, into precise concepts, as if I had to explain them to
some moron, is because I have to align these thoughts with "intent"
if I want them to become effective actions rather than just thoughts - e.g. to
actually heal the pancreas rather than just wish it were healed. This requires
careful and deliberate formulation almost as if preparing a legal document. It
is perhaps comparable to the old days when the bard could pronounce a curse or
blessing simply by the declamation of a skillfully-wrought poem.
It's all very weird.