We describe our experiences in different ways.
In the past this has maybe suggested (or we have maybe concluded) that we have quite different experiences on Salvia.
Now, to some extent, one could simply say to this, “of course we do”,
thinking that’s the way this stuff works, - through the psyche,
- through the personality of the experient.
And to some extent I think this is fair enough, - natural and to be expected.
If Salvia only brought up personal issues it would still be interesting.
There would doubtless be worth in working these through.
It would still be a useful ‘tool’.
But there is also something quite persistent about the experience suggestive of the fact
that it’s revealing something fundamental about the nature of reality itself.
This is Salvia’s really surprising aspect, - what makes it ‘news’.
And what encourages us to make the effort to explain and better understand it.
The trick is unravelling it. And it’s tricky because it’s tricky.
We’ve talked about getting ‘carried away’.
It doesn’t seem as if Salvia, of and by itself, does anything to stop one doing this.
Okay, it is probably part of the human condition,
but if anything Salvia seems to mischievously encourage a tendency to ‘reverie’.
As sorcerers we learn to push back against this.
Your recent account describes a feeling of being in elemental contact.
It does this with reference to specific elements, e.g. carbon, hydrogen, oxygen.
When I first read this I thought, “I don’t think I’ve had that experience”.
Then I thought, “What I often get is the feeling that nothing exists outside my field of vision.”
Like behind me is nothing but ‘blackness’. Not the cold vacuum of empty space,
but a ‘denser’ blackness, - the blackness of non-existence, which is also just beyond,
or behind, the surface of things in my field of vision, - things seen.
If I open a door behind which is blackness, I will see the adjoining room or hall,
but that’s just something that ‘unfolds’ with the action of me opening the door.
This field of vision feels like a membrane. I’m aware of being attached to it.
As the experience intensifies I can feel quite literally ‘stuck’ to it.
I counter unpleasant connotations of being ‘stuck’ to a membrane by telling myself that
this is just one of Salvia’s ‘tricks’. - A visual trick if you like.
As the experience recedes I’m inclined to see it less as a ‘trick’ and more as a metaphor.
– A metaphor suggesting that I exist somehow on a membrane.
The feeling of being ‘stuck’ to it can be flipped to a feeling of being ‘connected’ to it.
And the notion of being connected to a membrane can be seen as something quite elemental,
including in terms quite relevant to recent physical (new physics) descriptions of how
reality is at a fundamental level.
Again, in the intensity of the peak experience, I almost feel that I can move objects
(matter) telekinetically. If I’m really ‘connected’ to other stuff on this membrane,
then it ought to be possible.
Then, as the experience recedes, I interpret this ‘exaggeration’ also as a metaphor.
I may be able to move things with my intent.
But whereas a fully-fledged sorcerer may be able to levitate a coffee cup for example,
in practice some objects are easier for us to move than others.
It requires much less energy to move your arm and to reach out for the cup than
it does to make it rise without apparently ‘touching’ it.
If you want something even more amazing, a more novel idea than the fact that your body
can move according to your will, you can realise a new mechanism.
You can realise your computer as a work of imagination,
having the potential to respond to your voice for example.
And you can start doing something to make it so.
- Practical steps towards the culmination of Salvia’s grand vision.